Very unprofessionally painted picked-at nails, black pleather bracelet, pearls gifted to me by my Grandma Bev for my high school graduation and a scar as proof of my mass clumsiness upon my slightly chubby hand. That's when I realized, this was the perfect combination for representing who I am as a person; imperfect, clumsy but willing to try, edgy yet classy but all around - me!
Perfectionism is defined as "refusal to accept any standard short of perfection." But what is perfection? I'll give you a hint ... it's all about the physical appearance; at least that's what society has taught us. Thus why I cannot be happier by this one truth - society's definition of "perfect" is a giant lie! Whew! *swipes brow* Thank goodness.
There is a song by Sara Bareilles called "I Wanna Be Like Me" and she sings about how she doesn't want to be like anyone other than herself. So, here's a question for you; what does it mean to be the "perfect you"? Try to think past the physical sense, past the way society has taught us to think ... think about how God made you, what talents did He provided? What skills do you have? What are you good at that maybe surpass other's around you? What makes you, you?
I have asked myself this question many times for years and here I am, almost 30 years old, and I'm still struggling to come up with a definition sometimes. I also think about how many times I've change over the years; I'm not even the person I was last year let alone 10 years ago. So at the beginning of this year (2016) I decided that I would come up with the definition of a "perfect me" and work at obtaining it as close as possible.
To be "me" means to be strong, both physically and emotionally/spiritually. I want to be able to protect myself, those around me and also to be strong enough to be that shoulder that those around me may need. Being the "perfect me" means to be respectful, confident in who I am, to fill my life with art (however I define art at that moment) and to show love to those around me whomever they may be. Eventually it will mean to be a good and supportive wife to my husband, a loving mother to my children and a great leader for the ministry that I feel God has called me to do.
Finding who you perfectly should be is not geared solely to physical appearance (yes, you should take care of yourself as the world only was blessed with one you) but more about who you are as a person to those around you.
2 Corinthians 12:9
And He has said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for power is perfected in weakness " Most gladly, therefore, I will rather boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ may dwell in me.
