There's this amazing strategy game that I grew up playing called Eurorails. To win the game you have to connect your track to 7 out of the 8 major cities on the board and be the first to have 250 million in your bank. You obtain this goal by "building track", which is done by drawing lines between the dots on the board with a crayon. (See, told you it was awesome) ;) Anyways, I was playing this game and was very focused on picking up my loads from certain destinations and dropping them off at the designated drop city, strategically planning my routes.
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So as my best friend and I are playing, I'm thinking about where I should connect my track next for the least amount of money for the biggest pay off when I hear her say, "I've connected my 7 cities". At the risk of sounding over dramatic, my mind went blank for a moment. My slew of strategies I had running through my mind came to a screeching halt as I realized ... I forgot the whole point of the game!
I tend to do that with life. Most times people are being told not to focus so much on the future but more in the now; me ... I focus on the now, get comfortable, and then God reminds me there's a future. It tails off of a comment one of the pastors I work for said the other day in our staff meeting (I'm paraphrasing here), "You're going to run with more passion, purpose if you have something you're running to [a goal]." I realized I don't have a goal. I'm horrible at goals. I have ideas of things I would like ... get married, have a family, be healthy, be comfortable financially, get out of debt ... the basic American dream; but as for a set goal of the ever daunting "What do you want to do with your life" I turn into an immediate "deer in the headlights".
Thankfully I am reminded of a pipe dream I've had since I was 16 years old of becoming a missionary. As that is a rather broad term, I have narrowed it down to who I wanted to minister to and where. But now I am running into the issue of life ... bills have to be paid by the job I have to keep. In the next five years I plan to be married, have children, buy a house ... and so the more I think of when God might finally give me the green light, I feel I'll be blowing out 70 candles on my birthday cake. The "now" goals are still quite a mystery to me...something I'll be praying more on for sure. :)
